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Post-Alevels Boredom meter: 10%

I have yet to take a break since 0915h on 031209. Still suffering from exam lethargy and sleep debt :S Ahhh, stretch stretch stretch.

Man, I spent so much on transportation today: 8 x $0.45 = $3.60

Given up already?

:X

My attempts to study has, for the past week, been nothing but mere intentions. Sighs.

Hari Raji Haji; last Friday. This year’s “celebration” was a little different from previous years. Past Hari Raya Haji-s were usually spent in my grandma’s house where all of us would gather. But this year, my family was the only one there and we spent our day shuttling between houses instead Why? Because Mak Long and Pak Lang & family couldn’t come down from Malaysia. Pak Andak & family had a kenduri doa selamat at his house while Mak Ngah& family were busy preparing for Abang Leshak’s surprise birthday celebration. Pak Tam & family were shrugs, I have no idea where they were. So there we were, with Nenek and Pak Busu, on Hari Raya Haji.

Accompanied Nenek to Masjid Wak Tanjong to witness the korban ritual. The last time I went, I was very young and the only memory I had of that day was the stink of the goats. I took a few pictures of the goats while they were still alive. Mum insisted on taking pictures while the goats were being slaughtered and skinned. Hahs, shall not upload the pictures. Thought that I would have turned to vegetarianism upon witnessing the ritual but I’m still an omnivorous human!

Went to Mak Ngah’s house to celebrate Hari Raya Haji cum Abang Leshak’s birthday. Kak Ngah did most, if not all the cooking/baking. Wow. Her lasagne was (licks lips) nice! A little chessy, but I like. I was secretly ignoring the fact that I was eating BEEF lasagne (Yes, I don’t eat beef). Haha.

Then we went to Pak Andak’s house. More food!! I was over, severely, extremely bloated that the sight of food made me sick. No offence Mak Andak. I know you’re a great cook but I was soooo full. Mak Andak’s dad kept insisting that I look like Pak Tam. Really? I don’t think so. Stayed around for a while before heading back to Nenek’s house then back home.

By the time I got home, I was dead tired! But I wanted to watch Amazing Race (which I missed on Monday because I was out watching 2012). So I ended up all alone in the living room because everyone else was already in bed. It was quite scary to be alone in the living room especially when the house is all quiet, yeah yeah I’m a scaredy cat. But I had my (scaredy) cat to accompany me. He too, was fast asleep. 

I love Amazing Race. It’s unlike Survivor or American Idol that keep churning out the same old drama which bores me. The only parts of Survivor I like watching are the immunity and rewards challenges and for American Idol, they are the auditions where I get to laugh myself sick watching the William Hung-s of America. Amazing Race is a reality tv show, an educational show, a travel guide and everything else packed into that 1 hour that keeps me hooked; so much so that I look forward to it each week (considering that I rarely watch tv). <3 Amazing Race

My first attempt at playing a Facebook game is erhm, failing? I’m trying to play Cafe World but somehow, I can’t get my waitress to serve my customers! So all I get are people entering my cafe but only a few are being served. Tried changing my waitress but it doesn’t work. Sigh. All she does is to stand there and watch people enter and leave. And and and, I didn’t know that the game continues after I have logged out of Facebook. Imagine the shock I felt when I logged in (after 4 days) only to realise that the food I left cooking on the stove were spoilt So demoralising.

Man! I came online with the intention to print the Bio TYS answers but I’m logged into Facebook waiting for my food to be cooked so that I can serve it and not let it be spoilt again. Damn Facebook. It’s keeping me online much longer than I had intended to.

3 more days.. Can I afford to slack any further?

 Complete pandemonium

Where will you be?

A’Levels is (kind of) over. Is it a cause of celebration? Shrugs.

Went out with BW, JN, LH & ST on Monday to watch TWO-O-ONE-TWO! I like The graphics, the visual effects, the sound effects, the plot.. Everything combined together to produce such an awesome movie. Three years down the road..where will you be?

That aside, I learned some very important lessons in life. And the most important one – treasure your loved ones. Sounds cliche huh. But really, you don’t know what’s going to happen in the next minute, day, week, month.. And how people always say: live your day like it’s your last. That is so true. But we, tsk, by our inevitable human nature, live in procrastination. Always thinking that we’ll wake up to see the sun, we’ll get to hug our loved ones and basically expect to be given the opportunity (time and again) to do whatever we need or want. And that’s the story of the origin of the word ‘regret’.

If only-s wouldn’t have existed and continue to exist if we, as the saying goes, live our lives to the fullest. But that would make us perfect humans and nah, no one’s perfect. So we’ll just have to accept that procrastination is somewhat an innate behaviour. It’s just that different people ’suffer’ from different degrees of procrastination (albeit to a certain extent, a personal choice). And our ability to overcome this problem of procrastination is one of the marks of our success as a person.

So to all you out there, I just want to say that I really really sincerely want to thank you for anything and everything that you have done. If they were good acts, thank you. If they weren’t, I want to thank you even more because I’m sure that I have learnt a thing or two from that “bad experience”. And for all the good things I did to/for you, it was my pleasure. For all those bad things, I’m really sorry.

Well, that was me “penning” down my thoughts. Off the serious note..

Went to Mind Cafe with BW, JN , KH, MS, ST, WT, YO & YY Haha I always thought that it was Minds Cafe until someone brought up the mind v minds topic. I like Saboteur! Seems like we are into intellectual games. But it was fun. Who’s The Boss was not as bad as I thought it sounded like (or rather, how the guy made it sound to be). Maybe because I had ST as my partner. HAHA. Shall go back one day!

Anyways, on the night after catching 2012, I decided to repay my ‘reading newspaper debt’ and (tried) to read through a week stack of newspaper while waiting for my hair to dry. And I came across this term: ‘bruxism’.

Wikipedia.com:  “Bruxism, “gnashing of teeth”, is characterized by the grinding of the teeth and is typically accompanied by the clenching of the jaw. It is an oral parafunctional activity that occurs in most humans at some time in their lives. In most people, bruxism is mild enough not to be a health problem. While bruxism may be a diurnal or nocturnal activity, it is bruxism during sleep that causes the majority of health issues and can even occur during short naps. Bruxism is one of the most common sleep disorders.”

I feel really guilty when I wake up after a rested sleep only to hear my sister grumble about my teeth grinding which has been depriving her of her sleep, especially since she is a light sleeper. I’m sorry sis! I am often awaken in the middle of the night by her attempts to shut my jaws (and the noise) which for the past 12 years or so, has proven to nothing but futile efforts. And to all you who had to suffer through the nights during camps with me, man, I’m sorry!

8 more days to complete liberation? I doubt.

Oh look! It’s already 25 November!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BANGAH!!

Haha I doubt you’ll read this since you #1 are in camp, #2 don’t know about my blog (I hope).

I know we have never been close, never had much talk going on between us, and well, never quite gotten to know each other well. But I honestly do look up to you as much as I do to Balong and Kakak. I do hope that we’ll get to erhm, get to know each other more. And when I often nag/scold you for your bad eating habits, I mean good. Even though my words have been falling on deaf ears. Even though I have countless-ly mentioned that I have given up trying to get you to change. I haven’t. LOVE YOU BRO!

DON’T QUIT

Just wanted to post this up:

 

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low, and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

 

Life is strange with its twists and turns,

As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about.

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

 

Success is failure turned inside out.

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you can never tell how close you are.

It may be near when it seems so far.

So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,

It’s when things seem worst

That you must not quit.

 

I found this poem pinned up on the ODAC Room notice board and find it a simple yet motivating piece.  And it hit the spot.

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Here’s my pre-ALevels post (Read: Last post until the end of ALevels)!

We had our Farewell Assembly this morning. Honestly, it was boring. I had expected something more interesting, something more fun, something more Victorian? People always equate VJC and the word ‘fun’ but somehow it just lacked the fun element. Except for the House Comm skit which was super hilarious. Laughed till I cried.

After all the performances, we sang the Victorian Anthem. I felt a little sad.. I guess at this point of time when we still have to go back to school for Mock Exams and extra classes, it doesn’t feel like farewell yet. But I knew that that was the very last time I would be singing the Victorian Anthem with the Victorian family. I admit that I don’t feel as attached to VJ as I am to Cedar but I do feel a slight wrench in my heart as I sang the song for the very last time.

(Failed) mass dance. I have no idea why they played the Friendship Dance song because once they played that song, everyone left. I was a little disappointed ’cause I had wanted to dance but the PA Crew played the boy-girl song so my friends dragged me out of the hall. Mass dances are definitely one of the highlights of my life in VJ!

Lastly, we went to our CT venue, V43. Yeah, last time being there as a whole class (plus Mrs. Liew). Got back our PQ draft, CCA certificate and Prelims result slip. My CCA certificate is pathetic. I guess one of my regrets in life is that I  toned down in JC hence, my CCA certificate. I seriously do not know why I toned down. Maybe it’s the environment, shrugs. Yeah so anyways, I regret slacking my way through JC, in terms of both academic and non-academic work. Sigh, nothing can be done about that.

And so.. I have decided to take back my words. I had planned to go CCA-less and be a mugger freak in university but looking back, I have made up my mind to pursue my interest (whatever that may be) and be more actively involved in the university and the community. So yep, that’s the way to go!

My PQ is bad, period.

That aside, my Prelims result slip looks pretty=) Okay, maybe if you cover up the 2 Es. Can’t help feeling a little disappointed that I missed the D grade by just 1mark for both GP and Econs. Actually the only part of my result slip that I feel happy looking at is my ranking points. ‘Cause I had expected a ranking point lower than that of my CT2s but was pleasantly surprised when I saw the number _ _  . Just filed up the duplicate copy of my result slip and here’s a summary of how I have improved from JC1 MYE to JC2 Prelims Exam.

JC1 MYE: 38 (Haha)

JC1 Promos: 45 (Well, at least I’m halfway there)

JC2 CT1s: 41 (Drop drop drop)

JC2 CT2s: 73 (Here’s when I woke up and started to get serious about my studies)

JC2s Prelims: 75 (YAY)

Not a great improvement from CT2s but at least I improved Got to be optimistic!!

Okay, enough said about academics and school work. Erhm, what’s going on in my life (besides studying)? There are actually many things that are bothering me but I’m just trying to not let it affect my revision for Alevels. But I’ve got to admit, these things are affecting me and I’m hoping that I can put it aside and focus focus focus.

The Internet is not a safe place to pour your heart out.

O’Levels in Cedar. Wonder how A’Levels in VJ will be like.

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Shussh.

And of course,

See you on 3 December, Appleseed!

Post-Prelims

Here’s my severely overdued post-Prelims post.

Yeah yeah yeah. Like everyone else, I’m thought that I screwed up Prelims. BUT here’s a comforting thought; thank God it was only Prelims.

Thank God we have Prelims to screw up, Thank God we have Prelims to slap up awake, Thank God for everything.

Imagine that what we sat for a week ago was the Alevels examination and not Prelims. Woah. I just can’t imagine that.

So shut the complaining and get yourself ready for the real deal.

DEVILZ IN DISGUISE!

Recently, Uma told me to re-open my old blog after A’Levels because she wants to read the posts. Duh, I will not re-open my blog but I ‘opened’ it just for her.

Anways, I was just reading through the posts in my old blog and damn, I miss Cedar and Guides. Yeah, I had a couple of angsty, pissed off, irritated posts which I have absolutely no idea what I was angry/pissed off/irritated about. But the posts that captured the fun and liveliness of those Cedar years made me yearn to be back in Cedar. Oh man. I really miss those days.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

WOITS

Prelims are over!!! I am talking to Uma on the phone now and I can’t multi-task so I’m typing really really slow. Like one alphabet at a time. Okay I should stop typing and talk to her now.

(Time: 0000h) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIKIN!!

Okay I’m back. Oh my gosh. Uma called me at 11:46pm. We just hang up and guess what, it’s 1:31am. OMG. I talked to her for almost 2hours. Gasp gasp. Wonder how much credit she has left in her card. Anyways, it was nice talking to her after such a longgg time not having a proper conversation with her. Hi Uma:) I love long late night calls! I guess if it wasn’t for her phone vibrating in her ear (warning her that her battery was getting flat), we would have continued talking until her phone ran out of credit. But then I’ll feel bad. Okay, I shall reimburse you for the money spent for entertaining me!! SEE YOU SOON OKAY!!!

Anyways, back to Syikin. SELAMAT HARI RAYA JADI; YANG KE-LAPAN BELAS!! (Haha oh my, I was attempting to post in Malay for her but decided to backspace the whole paragraph! Lol. My Malay sounds so warped and wrong. Shall just wish her in English then.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRL!!! Hope you’ll have a great birthday, a great weekend, a great study break, a great exam period.. Ah, you get my point! Stay small and cute always! Haha I still find it amazing how (I think you know what I’m going to write about) despite being classmates for the whole 4 years in Cedar, our conversations were limited to erhm, Malay school work? And random things that we talk about ONCE IN A WHILE. And no, I do not belong to any elite Malay clique! Please lah, just look at my Malay now. So merepek! Anyways, hope I’ll get to know you better and here’s to more years of ‘less superficial’ friendship

Okay, I really got to get my butt on my bed now. It’s already 1:47am and I’m going hari raya visiting tomorrow. Wouldn’t want to have dark rings under my eyes, would I?

Till then.

Love you, nenek