Just wanted to post this up:

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low, and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is strange with its twists and turns,

As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about.

When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don’t give up though the pace seems slow,

You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out.

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you can never tell how close you are.

It may be near when it seems so far.

So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,

It’s when things seem worst

That you must not quit.

I found this poem pinned up on the ODAC Room notice board and find it a simple yet motivating piece.  And it hit the spot.

Here’s my pre-ALevels post (Read: Last post until the end of ALevels)!

We had our Farewell Assembly this morning. Honestly, it was boring. I had expected something more interesting, something more fun, something more Victorian? People always equate VJC and the word ‘fun’ but somehow it just lacked the fun element. Except for the House Comm skit which was super hilarious. Laughed till I cried.

After all the performances, we sang the Victorian Anthem. I felt a little sad.. I guess at this point of time when we still have to go back to school for Mock Exams and extra classes, it doesn’t feel like farewell yet. But I knew that that was the very last time I would be singing the Victorian Anthem with the Victorian family. I admit that I don’t feel as attached to VJ as I am to Cedar but I do feel a slight wrench in my heart as I sang the song for the very last time.

(Failed) mass dance. I have no idea why they played the Friendship Dance song because once they played that song, everyone left. I was a little disappointed ’cause I had wanted to dance but the PA Crew played the boy-girl song so my friends dragged me out of the hall. Mass dances are definitely one of the highlights of my life in VJ!

Lastly, we went to our CT venue, V43. Yeah, last time being there as a whole class (plus Mrs. Liew). Got back our PQ draft, CCA certificate and Prelims result slip. My CCA certificate is pathetic. I guess one of my regrets in life is that I  toned down in JC hence, my CCA certificate. I seriously do not know why I toned down. Maybe it’s the environment, shrugs. Yeah so anyways, I regret slacking my way through JC, in terms of both academic and non-academic work. Sigh, nothing can be done about that.

And so.. I have decided to take back my words. I had planned to go CCA-less and be a mugger freak in university but looking back, I have made up my mind to pursue my interest (whatever that may be) and be more actively involved in the university and the community. So yep, that’s the way to go!

My PQ is bad, period.

That aside, my Prelims result slip looks pretty=) Okay, maybe if you cover up the 2 Es. Can’t help feeling a little disappointed that I missed the D grade by just 1mark for both GP and Econs. Actually the only part of my result slip that I feel happy looking at is my ranking points. ‘Cause I had expected a ranking point lower than that of my CT2s but was pleasantly surprised when I saw the number _ _  . Just filed up the duplicate copy of my result slip and here’s a summary of how I have improved from JC1 MYE to JC2 Prelims Exam.

JC1 MYE: 38 (Haha)

JC1 Promos: 45 (Well, at least I’m halfway there)

JC2 CT1s: 41 (Drop drop drop)

JC2 CT2s: 73 (Here’s when I woke up and started to get serious about my studies)

JC2s Prelims: 75 (YAY)

Not a great improvement from CT2s but at least I improved Got to be optimistic!!

Okay, enough said about academics and school work. Erhm, what’s going on in my life (besides studying)? There are actually many things that are bothering me but I’m just trying to not let it affect my revision for Alevels. But I’ve got to admit, these things are affecting me and I’m hoping that I can put it aside and focus focus focus.

The Internet is not a safe place to pour your heart out.

O’Levels in Cedar. Wonder how A’Levels in VJ will be like.

2146/0089

Shussh.

And of course,

See you on 3 December, Appleseed!

Here’s my severely overdued post-Prelims post.

Yeah yeah yeah. Like everyone else, I’m thought that I screwed up Prelims. BUT here’s a comforting thought; thank God it was only Prelims.

Thank God we have Prelims to screw up, Thank God we have Prelims to slap up awake, Thank God for everything.

Imagine that what we sat for a week ago was the Alevels examination and not Prelims. Woah. I just can’t imagine that.

So shut the complaining and get yourself ready for the real deal.

Recently, Uma told me to re-open my old blog after A’Levels because she wants to read the posts. Duh, I will not re-open my blog but I ‘opened’ it just for her.

Anways, I was just reading through the posts in my old blog and damn, I miss Cedar and Guides. Yeah, I had a couple of angsty, pissed off, irritated posts which I have absolutely no idea what I was angry/pissed off/irritated about. But the posts that captured the fun and liveliness of those Cedar years made me yearn to be back in Cedar. Oh man. I really miss those days.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

Prelims are over!!! I am talking to Uma on the phone now and I can’t multi-task so I’m typing really really slow. Like one alphabet at a time. Okay I should stop typing and talk to her now.

(Time: 0000h) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIKIN!!

Okay I’m back. Oh my gosh. Uma called me at 11:46pm. We just hang up and guess what, it’s 1:31am. OMG. I talked to her for almost 2hours. Gasp gasp. Wonder how much credit she has left in her card. Anyways, it was nice talking to her after such a longgg time not having a proper conversation with her. Hi Uma:) I love long late night calls! I guess if it wasn’t for her phone vibrating in her ear (warning her that her battery was getting flat), we would have continued talking until her phone ran out of credit. But then I’ll feel bad. Okay, I shall reimburse you for the money spent for entertaining me!! SEE YOU SOON OKAY!!!

Anyways, back to Syikin. SELAMAT HARI RAYA JADI; YANG KE-LAPAN BELAS!! (Haha oh my, I was attempting to post in Malay for her but decided to backspace the whole paragraph! Lol. My Malay sounds so warped and wrong. Shall just wish her in English then.)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRL!!! Hope you’ll have a great birthday, a great weekend, a great study break, a great exam period.. Ah, you get my point! Stay small and cute always! Haha I still find it amazing how (I think you know what I’m going to write about) despite being classmates for the whole 4 years in Cedar, our conversations were limited to erhm, Malay school work? And random things that we talk about ONCE IN A WHILE. And no, I do not belong to any elite Malay clique! Please lah, just look at my Malay now. So merepek! Anyways, hope I’ll get to know you better and here’s to more years of ‘less superficial’ friendship

Okay, I really got to get my butt on my bed now. It’s already 1:47am and I’m going hari raya visiting tomorrow. Wouldn’t want to have dark rings under my eyes, would I?

Till then.

Love you, nenek

TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

Quando sono solo
Sogno allorizzonte
E mancan le parole
Si lo so che non c luce
In una stanza
Quando manca il sole
Se non ci sei tu con me, con me.
Su le finestre
Mostra a tutti il mio cuore
Che hai acceso
Chiudi dentro me
La luce che
Hai incontrato per strada

Time to say goodbye
Paesi che non ho mai
Veduto e vissuto con te
Adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
Su navi per mari
Che io lo so
No no non esistono piu
Its time to say goodbye.

Quando sei lontana
Sogno allorizzonte
E mancan le parole
E io si lo so
Che sei con me con me
Tu mia luna tu sei qui con me
Mio sole tu sei qui con me
Con me con me con me

Time to say goodbye
Paesi che non ho mai
Veduto e vissuto con te
Adesso si li vivro.
Con te partiro
Su navi per mari
Che io lo so
No no non esistono piu
Con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
Su navi per mari
Che io lo so
No no non esistono piu
Con te io li rivivro.
Con te partiro
Io con te.

Time to say goodbye

Privatized.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!:D

I lost before I could even fight.

Farewell’s tomorrow. I am a little sad I am not making any gifts for the batch. Not because I don’t want to nor is it because I am too busy studying rather, I cannot find the material that I need to make it. I went from East to North to Central and South but still can’t find it. I have a really great idea and I don’t want to abandon the idea, not yet. So I’m hoping that if I can somehow find the material some day, and give it to my batchmates before we graduate. Honestly, I find that it is a little weirdly ‘pointless’ to present gifts to the batch because we will still be seeing each other around, some more than the rest, after this Saturday so it kind of defeats the purpose of “saying goodbye”. I’ll probably give it later this year, provided I can find the thing I have been looking for.

I don’t want to say goodbye until I’m ready to part. But circumstances often force otherwise.

How could this happen to me
I’ve made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I’m fading away