Recently, Uma told me to re-open my old blog after A’Levels because she wants to read the posts. Duh, I will not re-open my blog but I ‘opened’ it just for her.

Anways, I was just reading through the posts in my old blog and damn, I miss Cedar and Guides. Yeah, I had a couple of angsty, pissed off, irritated posts which I have absolutely no idea what I was angry/pissed off/irritated about. But the posts that captured the fun and liveliness of those Cedar years made me yearn to be back in Cedar. Oh man. I really miss those days.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same

Teachers’ Day 2008.

Erhm..It wasn’t quite teachersday-ish for me. ‘Cause #1 I missed a huge chunk of VJ Teachers’ Day celebration, #2 The teachers left Cedar for Teachers’ Day lunch before I could even see them, #3 I didn’t get to give my teachers the thing I made for them. If not for #1 camwhoring with a handful of batchmates in the bus back to VJ, #2 meeting Aroha, #3 meeting Germaine and Ke Hui, #4 bumping into Eugenia in PS, #5 seeing a few (ex)Cedar Guides, #6 seeing other familiar faces in a not familiar place, I would found today very suck-ish. Ahh, slap yourself for complaining so much.

Well, I had to wake so at an unearthly hour in order to catch the earlier bus so that I can be in school by 715am. Ended up having a slight morning work-out running into school because the bus driver drove at a slow pace. Reached SAFRA Tampines and was disappointed at the outcome of the whole event. Well, students from East Zone schools were supposed to skip continuously for 3minutes (in lieu of ACES day) but what happened in the end? Basically the whole event was a flop. Kind of wished I was back in VJ, eating breakfast with my class and Mrs. Liew. Only got high AFTER the event when we cheered ‘Yo VJC’. The 25ths (FT, GT, JN, KH, LH, MS, QA, SK, ST) took jump shots and starting camwhoring all the way to the chartered bus and in the bus. Photos please Jia Ni!

Managed to catch the last few parts of the Teachers’ Day celebration in VJ. Not bad, it was quite fun! The whole dramatic thing was super funny. Weird, random and yet funny. The video presentation about the teachers’ ‘excursion’ (HAHA) was FUNNY! It was nice seeing the teachers, not being their usual self. And yeah, the photo slide for the Teachers’ Day dinner. That was all that I managed to catch.

Up into the ODAC room and celebrated BW, PO and YO’s early birthdays (’cause of September holiday). Sorry PO for forcing you to come back to VJ! AD baked cake/brownies with M&Ms! Nice try AD! You’re like our official cook/chef. First it was jelly, now it’s cake! Hmm, wonder what’s next. Haha.

Rushed back to Cedar with JN, LH, SK and her two NP mates. I was pretty disappointed when I found out that the teachers already left the school for the Teachers’ Day lunch. Crap, didn’t they know or expect that old girls would want to come back to visit their teachers? But having the teachers leaving for the lunch at 12pm doesn’t allow us to see them! Unless we pon our JC celebrations. Which isn’t something I have considered doing in VJ. Why can’t they have a dinner instead? Allow the teachers to go home, wash up and dress nicely for a dinner instead of dressing casual for a less formal lunch. Wasted all my #1 time, #2 effort, #3 money making the things for them. I do hope that I can get to see them one day, soon.

Well, seeing familiar faces in Cedar made me a little happier. Germaine and Ke Hui whom I have not seen since the day we got back our O’Levels results! Vishalini and Uma whom I have not seen since Dhivyaa’s birthday but that’s not counted as proper meeting up ’cause I came late and Uma left early. And many other class of 2007 Cedarians whom I haven’t seen in ages!

Camwhored a little in Cedar (photos with Vishalini) and then went to Bugis with Germaine and Ke Hui where they ate their lunch while I sat and watched them eat ’cause I had a stomachache. Walked around a little before going to Plaza Sing where I met Dhivyaa and NM!!! Not bad ah, Dhivyaa. Uma left not long after Dhivyaa came. Left Aroha to walk around PS with Germaine and Ke Hui for a while and joined Vishalini and Dhivyaa after that. “Sent” Dhivyaa to Compasspoint where we camwhored (again) and went back to Serangoon.

Serangoon –> Marine Parade (VJC) –> Tampines –> Marine Parade (VJC) –> Kallang Bahru (Cedar) –> Bugis Junction –> Dhoby Ghaut (PS) –> Sengkang (Compasspoint) –> Serangoon (HOME sweet HOME) =)

Mummy refused to go out with me. Hmph.

Oh, and I broke my spectacles AGAIN. And the guy at the spectacles shop said “Sorry, I can’t do anything.”

It’s easy for you to say that.

Wow I have not been blogging for more than a week. Actually I had wanted to blog the day after I had a huge argument with my dad for refusing to come for the Sikkim information session. But since he refused to let me go, what can I do? I have to just live with the fact that I will not be able to spend that half a month wih my batchmates in Sikkim and stop thinking about it. And like Mr Seet said, I have to understand and respect my parents’ (or in this case, my dad) decision. I shall hand in the Sikkim consent form to MS tomorrow (if I remember to let my mum/dad sign) and stop clinging onto the tiny, almost non-existent hope that my dad will let me go.

Anyway, I have thought about it and realised that if my dad had let me go to Sikkim, he would probably kick up a HUGE fuss when he knows that I will be down for many more camps after Sikkim eg. ITC, B2B, OLC 1, OLC 2. So in order to comfort myself for not being able to go to Sikkim, I know that my dad will (hopefully) not kick up a huge fuss when I tell him that I need to go for those camps. I can simply argue with him that since he refused to let me go for the Sikkim trip which he considers ‘unsafe’, there is no way I am going to let him not let me go for the camps which he cannot argue that are not safe.

So disappointed as I may be that I will not be able to join my batchmates in Sikkim, there is more to life than going to Sikkim.

I think that I am an optimistic person =) HAHA. No, seriously. When I get denied of things that I want or need (not necessarily material ones), I may be upset for a period of time but that period of time is usually a day or two, max. And after that, life goes on. I guess I am the kind of person who gets up easily after a fall. The kind of person who does not let failures and obstacles hold him back. 

Like back in Cedar when people get so depressed over screwing up their major exams (especially during the Sec4 Mid-years and Prelims), I do not sit and cry over my ’screw ups’ but instead I make it a point to do whatever I can to not have to go through the same experience again. Come to think of it, I have never cried because of an exam before. When I almost failed Chemistry during Sec 4 Mid-years and would not have passed it if not for moderation, I worked harder for my (still very bad) Chemistry. I did countless of MCQ questions and kept doing my TYS and look, it is my only A1 Science for OLevels. Haha.

When my dad did not let me go for Sikkim, yeah true I was disappointed and depressed at one point of time but after that short moment that I broke down, I guess I am pretty okay now. So guys, fret not, I am pretty fine with the fact that I am denied the opportunity to go to Sikkim. Just don’t ask me about it and how I feel. And I will be fine =)

Anyway, I am supposed to be doing my Econs article critique which is due this Friday at 12pm. AHH! Progress: Found an article! ONLY!! Got to hurry do my critique and hopefully finish it by today. Gee. Econs sucks. And since I am the only one taking H1 Econs in my class, I will have to do it alone =( But hey, look on the brighter side, at least I only have to do ONE article instead of two =)

See, I told you I am an optimist =)

Ohh something happened just now. When I unlocked the house door for my dad who came home for lunch earlier today, he told me that a few crows are making a din outside (downstairs). Being a usual kiasu Singaporean, I went out of my house and peered over the ledge. A few foreign workers were cutting down the trees around the carpark beside my block. And there were two particular crows that kept circling around the area where the men were working, occasionally swooping lower for a closer look and then perched on the ledges on the opposite block. I inferred that the crows had eggs/baby crows in the tree that was chopped down. I felt so sad for the crows. The crows kept circling around the work area until a few of the men walked off towards a lorry, leaving just one man to clean up the rest of the branches, did the crows dared to swoop down, pick up remnants of their eggs/babies with their beaks and carried it up to another tree. Can you imagine how it will be like for those animals living in areas of large-scale deforestation? Mothers and fathers looking for their youngs. Helpless and devasted. But yet, hopeful that they will find their youngs. Only to have their hopes dashed when they find limp, flattened dead bodies of their youngs or broken eggs with their contents all spilled out.

But even the best fall down sometimes.

Woohoo! Went for the National Cross-Country at CCAB! Met Uma, *coughs* somebody (haha), Ms Poon, Mr Goh, Mr Chan, Stephanie, Jasmine etc. Cheered for VJ and Cedar. CEDAR!! x) Since when did their cross-country top become orange? I thought that it was yellow top with grey FBTs all along. WHY ORANGE?! Yellow and grey are one of our school colours. Why change that? I was expecting to see familiar faces in yellow and grey running towards the finishing line but was surprise (more of appalled rather) to see familiar faces in bright orange top! Things have changed. And I’m not liking it.

School’s rather bad. I find myself dragging my ass from lecture theatres to tutorial classrooms to the canteen to science labs – lugging my bag while aimlessly walking around the school. Merely dragging myself around the school just to pass time and finding myself off-focused during lectures and tutorials.

Politics are starting to show up in my class. Sad sad. It’s sad how I used to think that I was so lucky to be sorted out into S33 and was so happy with the new bunch of people I soon got to know. But now everyone’s so immersed with themselves, their CCAs, the studies and whatever shit there are in the world that nobody bothers to try to keep the class together. And that nobody includes me. (How ironic. There’s actually me in a group of nobody.) I have changed perspective towards my class and my classmates. And that sucks. I can feel myself growing closer to certain people in my class and even closer to people from other classes, namely the ODACers. Ok, as of tomorrow, I shall try to make the effort to bond with my classmates!

ODAC is what I look forward to every day=] A great bunch of people who never fail to make me smile and laugh even when I am in the crappiest of moods. I find myself checking my mobile constantly during lectures and tutorials (yeah yeah stupid Starhub, don’t have reception) in case Boss sends a relay message to me. I find myself looking forward to Syikin’s sms, asking what time I end and telling me to meet her in the canteen when my lessons are over. I find myself looking forward to seeing familiar faces in the canteen/ODAC room after school and going to the toilet to change into our T-shirts. I find myself loving ODAC more and more and hopefully never to stop doing that.

Accompanied Syikin to Neptune Court 7-11 and decided on something for my mortal. Shall buy it when I have the financial means to. Haha. Then we went to play at the swing! YAY!! I love swings! Cheap form of relaxation. SWINGS!

I can’t wait to go ‘cycling’ with Syikin tomorrow! Hopefully the stationary bikes will be available for us to use!

& when the sun sets, I find myself looking forward to the next sunrise.

Browsed through my pictures and found really nice and memorable pictures.

The sky over Cedar is ever so beautiful!

I can’t believe I’m going to say this. Cedar’s 50th Speech Day was not as great as I had expected it to be. There, I’ve said it. I feel a sense of guilt and disloyalty while typing the above sentence but that’s the truth, sadly. I was so excited at the thought of going back to Cedar, seeing my teachers and juniors and just soaking in the Cedar warmth and spirit. Well, I guess part of the reason why I didn’t enjoy Speech Day as much as I had wanted to was because it was on a Friday night. Why have it on a school day? And why have it at night?! I didn’t have time to take pictures with most of my friends and not a single one with my teachers. How pathetic is that? Very. I couldn’t take pictures before the event because my friends came just nice on time for the rehearsal because their school ended late. And I couldn’t take after the even because my parents were rushing me home. Sick.

On the way home, my mum was asking me about Rock Climbing – when is the training session, how much do I have to pay etc. Instantly, I knew what she was driving at. She wanted me to quit ODAC. Crazy or crazy? I left Rock-Climbing for ODAC and now you want me to join Rock Climbing back. That is never going to happen. Never.

On a lighter note, I went to recce ECP with Lemuel this morning. Wahlao, he mistook me for a guy. Had fun recce-ing under the hot sun! After that we went to Popular to buy paper for the checkpoint clue cards and our Land Chief file which is green ’cause green is a ‘land colour’. Reminds me of NCC though.

We just finished our ECP Orienteering proposal which looks damn nice and colourful! I feel so proud of the proposal although I’ve got to admit that Lemuel did most of the work. Sorry Lemuel. I will have to upgrade on my IT skills and try to do more work next time.

Oh and I’m so happy that my brother have installed Microsoft Office for me! YAY. I can finally read the minutes and open the documents sent by YO and LF =) Thank you Jia Ni for typing and printing my PI for me ’cause I didn’t have Word Document at that time. And sorry for troubling you when you haven’t even done your own PI.

I want to believe that life is a bliss but somehow I find it hard to.

WOOHOO! Tomorrow is Cedar’s 50th Speech Day and I can’t wait to go back to lovely Cedar. I miss Cedar, everything about Cedar is just so perfect. I miss the old school building.

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Our first PT session was okay. It was not as bad as I had expected it to be. We jogged to the HDB flats to do stairs-climbing. 4 times 25 floors. Did push-ups, sit-ups and squats between intervals. My first interval was torturous! But the following ones were nice. I guess the first time is always the worst and subsequent ones get much easier as you get used to it. I like doing things as a batch ’cause when you do things together, you don’t think of the pain but rather you enjoy the moment spent. After that, we ran back to school and started our 2.4km jog around the school. I did not really do that well but hey, it was an improvement from my mock NAPFA. Haha. I really do hope PT sessions will help to improve my 2.4km timing! I am rather surprised that this morning I did not wake up with muscle cramps all over. Once I tried climbing up the stairs to my house which is on the 13th floor and the next morning I woke up with cramps on my thighs.

I like the after-PT feeling. The feeling of satisfaction after working out and feeling of accomplishment after pushing yourself to reach for your limits.

Well, I have to mentally prepare myself for next Wednesday – Welcome PT with the seniors. We are going to run 8km. Good luck to me!