I am tired. Of being all alone.

This is going to be my last post until after CT1s. Promise.

Life is so _____. I can’t find the word to describe it.

I’m drained. I try very hard not to show that I am tired and lethargic but really, I am. In the morning, I lie down on the ODAC Room sofa to rest before morning assembly. In school, I nod off a little during lectures and tutorials.  Other than these occassions, I really try hard to keep myself up and going. At home, I try even harder to hide my lethargy. How ironic. These days, I often sleep very soundly. I no longer find myself waking up in the middle of the night because I need my sleep. And I no longer have any trouble falling asleep because the moment my head hits the pillow, I will be off to LaLaLand.

I like my 1 hour bus rides to school and back because these are the times when I get to catch up on my sleep. And now, I often find myself not wanting to talk on bus journeys and all I want to do is to sit/stone/sleep. Solitary.

Sigh.

PS: I am trying really to try to communicate with my dad. And I think our relationship is getting better. Slowly, yes.

In this world, there are only three people.