OT & Apologies

OT is in officially less than 18 hours away! I am very very very excited for it but at the same time I am not sure what to expect of it. AHH!

Today was FULL DAY! YEAH YEAH YEAH! It was kind of expected ’cause the teachers and school staff (eg. canteen stallholders) dropped major hints.

Slacked around in Boss’ house with the 25ths – YO, XY, WI, KA, QA, TB, LF, YY, LH, JN, ST, WT, GT, SK! Damn fun. Played ‘Game of Life’. It was my first time playing that game. Managed to get a pathetic sum of 1.22million at the end of the game. Xuan Yi damn pro la. He chose the College path and kept spinning ones and twos. He was forever stuck at the College path while others have advanced to the Career path, gotten married and had kids. But in the end, somehow, he won ’cause he had the most money. Conclusion: Education will make you rich! HAHA.

Then we played Star Wars Monopoly which we did not complete ’cause the PIZZA came! I ate 3 slices of pizza and my stomach felt like bursting. Wahh the guys ate like 5 slices and could still eat somemore. Watched the guys play some funny game on the PS2. In between that, I kept walking up the stairs to accompany the people doing the Chem E-Assessment in Boss’ room.

Damn tiring can, kept climbing stairs. No wonder Boss got knee problem/injury, everyday have to climb 3 flight of stairs just to get to his bedroom. Oh ya, free publicity for Boss: his house DAMN big! It’s like don’t-know-how-many-times bigger than mine. Still got ‘rooftop garden’ somemore. Wahseh. Rich kid.

Went back to school at around 4pm and waited for the Mediacorp people to come. Wah seh, we waited until around 530pm then they come. My dad kept calling me, my phone kept vibrating and I couldn’t/refused to answer. I knew he was going to be pissed off at me =(

I think I owe the 25ths an apology and many advanced apologies ’cause I may not be able to commit (time) myself to ODAC as much as I would love to ie. not being able to stay back late everyday. I find myself always leaving early (eg. today and yesterday) and it makes me feel bad. My parents are very particular about me going home late. They do not give me a specific curfew but there is this invisible/non-existent/non-defined curfew, somehow. It’s like when I cross the ‘invisible’ curfew, I unconsciously get very fidgety. I do not like to get my parents angry ’cause I love them a lot and it is not a nice feeling when I watch them getting angry at me. No, I do not hate getting scolded or nagged at but it pains me to watch them get so worked up because of me.

Also because I am in some sense the ’smartest’ among their 4 children and it somehow gives me this ‘indirect pressure’ not to disappoint them (which I have been ever since I came in VJ). So I find my parents constantly ‘reminding’ (to put it nicely) me that I ought to be home early to revise my work instead of out in school or somewhere else doing what they consider non-academic. I do not know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing that unlike some of you guys, I do not have parents who are, how do I put it, pretty lenient with their children and do not mind if their children spend almost their entire day out there, somewhere. I guess it has both its good and bad points. But since I cannot do much to change that I guess I just have to work with it.

Oh and one last thing, in case you guys do not know, I am funding the ODAC activities using my own money ie. not extorting from my parents. The money I use for ODAC activities comes from my scholarship money and if I do not perform up to standard for my JC1 Promotional Exam then my scholarship will not be renewed next year. Which means that I will have no more money to fund for my ODAC activities next year. So this and the indirect pressure from my family kind of stresses me out sometimes. I keep telling myself that I have to do well for my academic work and I am afraid that I may not be able to do so if I over-commit myself to non-academic activities. Well, not every one of us is Calvin Han (Man, I do hope he does not read this.)

I really do hope that this will not really affect my life as a soon-to-be ODAC instructor and our batch bonding and cohesiveness.

I hope the upper section of the post does not sound cheesy or corny. Sheesh.