PAGGAWA TINIKLING DANCE!
TOMORROW!! I’m so excited for it. But my calves muscles are aching really badly and I’m afraid that it might affect my performance tomorrow. Pray for the best! =] After tomorrow, no more bamboo pole dancing!! =D Though I will have to admit that I will definitely miss all the things we do during dance practices. Sweating it out and yet having fun. Playing cards, stretching, talking, gossiping, PIZZA! I will surely miss those times. Although it has pretty much no link to ODAC, it will be one of the memories I have of ODAC.
I’m going for the Book Prize Interview this coming Monday and I think I am so going to waste my time there. 1) Possibility of me getting the Book Prize is as tiny as the period at the end of this sentence. 2) I will have to take my NAPFA 5 items the following week as my class is scheduled for 5 items on the same day as the interview 3) Because of Point 2, I will have to take my NAPFA 2.4km the week after my 5 items. 4) Last but DEFINITELY the least, I will be missing out on some lecture/s and/or tutorial/s.
Took 135 to school with Reema. And she kept asking if I am Ok. I don’t know. She claims that I look very distracted and as though I am thinking of something. I don’t know. Well during this past week, things are zooming past me, really quickly. And I guess I don’t know how to cope with it. Trying to grasp thin air. I’m trying to keep up with schoolwork – attempt all my tutorials and do my assignments. I’m trying to commit myself to ODAC – staying back in school till as late as 830pm almost everyday. I’m trying not to get my parents upset with me spending more than three-quarters of my time everyday in school, asking for money to pay for this and that. I’m trying.
I have to admit that I’m pretty much distracted by things. I’m getting more moody, more irritable and more complain-y. I guess lack of sleep does affect you in some way. And lack of personal and relaxation time do the same thing to you too.
I can feel myself distancing from my family. I used to talk to my mum everyday after school. Sit on the dining table in the kitchen while she prepares dinner and I will narrate stories after stories. She never fail to respond to my long, endless stories. And she never fail to laugh when I know that she did not find it funny but she laughed anyway, just to make me happy. Tell her what happened in school, funny things that I wanted her to hear, stupid things that I did which embarrassed myself, irritating things that annoy me. But now, the only encounter I have with her everyday are in the morning when she prepares my breakfast, gives me my pocket money and walks me to the door to leave for school. At night, I barely talk to her. I will simply dump my bag in my room, bathe, do a little homework if I still have the energy to, eat a little if I still feel hungry and then sleep. No more bonding time with my family while watching the television, no more bonding time with my family over dinner, no more ‘just plain bonding time’ with my family. And this troubles me.
That aside, PW is troubling me too. They should just remove these two dreaded words from the alphabets and just have 24 letters in the alphabet instead of 26. Next time you go singing the alphabet song, do remember that P and W are no longer part of the alphabet. Oh crap.
PS: I want Xuan Yi’s ORANGE spectacles!!
One thing at a time, one thing at a time.
